Here comes the Sun.

I know I already posted this picture, but it is fitting for the day.
Happy winter solstice.

And for how I have been feeling.

Here comes the sun 
Here comes the sun, and I say  
It's all right
Little darling 
It's been a long, cold lonely winter 
Little darling 
It feels like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun  
Here comes the sun, and I say 
It's all right
Little darling  
The smiles returning to the faces 
Little darling 
It seems like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun 
Here comes the sun, and I say 
It's all right
Little darling I feel that ice is slowly melting  
Little darling  
It seems like years since it's been clear
Here comes the sun  
Here comes the sun, and I say  
It's all right
Here comes the sun  
Here comes the sun  
It's all right  
It's all right

This Holiday season has not been so bad.  I don't know if I was expecting the worst and so anything above that feels fantastic or if it really has been better...but I do know it has a whole lot to do with me. 

Something somewhere, sometime changed.  The change was me.  I changed me.  And changing me changed everything. A bit of a domino effect, I guess.  
And before I knew it--well, 
Little darling Here comes the sun and I say, It's alright.  
And by saying "before I knew it" what I mean is "several years later".
And by saying "I changed me" what I mean is "with a lot of help and support I was able to get a few things through my thick skull".

Life is still not exactly what I would hope for it to be.  Mike and I are still both working part time and filling in the gaps where ever we can.  The punks still drive me crazy.  Every so often I'm pretty sure if the gypsies came through town I would be tempted to sell a child or two.

But, you know what?  We're okay.  
We are happy and healthy and all here together. 
(which is so much more than some families will get to have this Christmas)  

So, I will take it.  I will take the chaos.   
And the scrimping and scrambling.  I will take the fits and the fighting.
I will take the craziness and the complaining.  
I will take the smiles and the tears.

I don't really know why I've been given this particular row to hoe, 
I don't know why you've been given yours.
And I don't know why our parallel rows are so different, 
the ground seems so much harder for some. 
I do know that I'm a hoe to the end of the row kinda gal. 
And so are my peeps. 
I know that hard work and determination make me happy.  
And so does chocolate.
I know that It's alright...or that it will be. 
And I know that if I'm not where I'm at, I'm no where. 
So here I am...and there you are. 

And, look....Here comes the Sun.